So Much for the 27 Club
Well, if nothing else, I’ve officially passed any opportunities I may have had for joining the 27 club — I’m officially 28 today (and besides, I think you have to be famous — especially as a musician — for you to be part of said club…). So, I’ve spent the day reading quotes from bash.org and doing absolutely nothing. Of course, that’s pretty much what I’ve been doing every day since I got back on leave, so it isn’t anything special.
Got a message on FB from a friend of mine who finished reading Like Glass, and (of course) they said it was great. Kinda irks me — and don’t take this the wrong way, if you happen to catch this — but it makes me wonder, if the damned book is so “great”, as everyone has said it is, why the fuck couldn’t I get it published? I dunno… Not gonna worry about it anymore; I think I’m done with that side of my life for now.
Was giving a half-assed thought to starting up my own company again, “Chocolate for Dogs Productions” (or something stupid like that). Sell my books, music, and software under one name, all relatively cheap. Not worth it though, especially when I’d have to worry about filing taxes and everything. It’d be fun to screw around with the stuff for a month or two, and then I’m sure I’d get tired of it.
Also, and this is one of the reasons I haven’t done much posting lately, I’ve been kinda keeping my eye out for another job. That’s a joke though. There’s no jobs out here, nothing that I can do with the skills I have and make as much money as I’m making now. I dunno….
I’ve been trying really hard to try and keep my chin up for a long time (I know it probably doesn’t sound like it most of the time), but the fact is nothing gets better, and I’m fucking tired of it. Meds don’t help. Therapy didn’t help. I don’t want to deal with either of those any more — I stopped doing the therapy stuff, and I’m seriously thinking of talking to my doc at the next appointment and dropping the meds too. It’s a waste of fucking time and money — and there isn’t a lot of the latter to waste any more.
Okay, I’m going to bash.org again, get a few more laughs before I have to go pick the wife up.
–Matt
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